Delving into her thoughts about a visit to Bridger, she told the Sunday People:“It’s something I have to do. I know it will be really hard. I’ll want to hurt him. I already have fantasies of pouring acid over him.
“I’ll want to make him suffer, to do to him what he did to my little girl but I’ll have to restrain myself because unleashing my anger will only make me feel bad afterwards.
“I want to know the truth no matter how horrific it is. I’m April’s mum and I owe it to her to find out.”
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But in an extraordinary display of courage, the mum is determined to meet Bridger, 49, in top-security Wakefield prison, West Yorks, for answers on April’s final moments and where her body is.
She said: “I admit I’ve been suicidal. What mum could cope with the thoughts I have inside my head?
“But when I think of April’s last moments the picture in my head is so awful that I can’t imagine he could say anything that could possibly be worse.
“We know April died a horrific death but I suppose I’m just hoping that it wasn’t as horrific as I’ve imagined at my lowest points.”
April was just five years old when she was murdered